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Month: June, 2011

Welcome to Singapura

It’s been two weeks.

Here are a 5 snapshots of my first week here minus the less interesting parts like “induction” by the Ministry of Education and getting a stomach flu preventing me from going to said induction.

#1: IT IS HUMID HERE

Seriously, if you check the weather of Singapore right now, whenever that now happens to be, the humidity will be 75 – 95%. I got out of the airport with my mentor and his wife and stopped dead in my tracks. “What!?” was all I could say. It was like hitting a wall of water. The air is made of water! I need to grow gills!

I love hot, humid weather, but this is beyond my experience. Is it because I’m so near the equator? Is it because I’m on an island so close to the equator? Fortunately for me and everyone around me on the metro, I am not a sweaty person and my body has contented itself with glowing agreeably. Also fortunately, everyone is always blasting their a/c and even my music classrooms have enormous a/c units.

#2: Little India on Sunday afternoon

For those of you who know what it’s like to up and move to a country where you know no one, you’ll understand the need to keep moving. I arrived Saturday evening, put down my ridiculous leopard-printed luggage (I’m not kidding about those! I’ll take a picture when I finally lay them to rest in my permanent apartment,) and ate a hugely appreciated dinner with the family I’m staying with. Their names are Victor and Connie and they’re a sweet Filipino couple who are friends with a long-lost 3rd cousin or something. I don’t spend any time with the Filipino community ever, but damn, they pull through. I’m staying in a bedroom in their posh condo. I can’t stay though because it’s a far way from where I’ll be working. And … from most places on the island.

Sunday I languished in bed for a while until I dragged myself up and out, got a SIM card, exchanged some cash (for I had NO MONEY!) and tackled the public transit system. I chose a likely sounding MRT station: Little India. I hadn’t bothered to do any research on Singapore before I arrived just because, but I’d heard about the Little India, so off I went.

One of the many temples. I went Sunday afternoon and it was just swarming with people.

It took an hour and a bit to get there. For such an “advanced” country, Singapore’s MRT (that’s Massive Rapid Transit) is slooooooowwww. It’s not a big island, but I was surprised at how long it takes to get around. In Little India, I wandered aimlessly, taking photos of whatever. I found out later that Sunday afternoon is when a lot of the Indian men have time off, so they all gather in Little India to attend temple and just have a chill time, and I don’t doubt it. It was packed. I could hardly walk down the street.

Fresh fragrant flower garlands

There were some fruit markets and hawker centres and cheap goods for sale. My favourite part of that afternoon was walking behind a group of women wearing jasmine blossoms in their hair. I’ve never smelled fresh jasmine before; it is potent.

#3: The Lasalle Art Centre

There are 14 new foreign teachers including myself (very different from the 800 of us who arrived at once in Seoul 2009.) There’s three Tamil dudes, three Indian women from Calcutta, a Filipina, an Indonesian girl, a Liverpuddlian, a Texan, a Polish woman, and two other Canadian girls. The three of us are living together, or will be when I move in July 1. After I got over the Terrible Stomach Flu of 2011, I went to meet one of the girls Rebecca at her hotel. Here’s a building near that hotel.

Lasalle building

It's an art college, I think.

#4: Singapore Sling

At the end of the first week the three Canadians and Iwona the Polish woman went out to celebrate in Chinatown.  They were intent on getting Singapore Slings. A Sling is some sort of cocktail designed to for tastiness and “a tardy alcoholic rush”. Direct quote. I decided not to indulge because of the Terrible Stomach Flu of 2011, but I pretended.

Please note: alcohol is prohibitively expensive, as I was warned by a friend. These slings came at a hefty $15 apiece.

Rebecca and Rachel with their slings.

Me and Iwona, pretending.

#5: If you are seeking housing in Singapore YOU NEED AN AGENT

Take it from me, self-proclaimed Queen of Cheap, an agent is a must. Suck it up, and pay that extra 1/2 a month rent because it will save you so much hassle, time, and MONEY. Foreigners get cheated all the time here because we don’t know the Singapore housing rules. You have to be careful. I came across four scams online searching for a rental before I met our agent. Also you have to be careful finding an agent who isn’t just after agent fees; trying to sell you any apartment as soon as possible. Lucky for us, Rebecca’s mentor from the Ministry hooked her up with an excellent, and very human agent. She’s an angel. An angel with an SUV. If you ever find yourself in need of a housing agent, rental or otherwise, send me a message and I’ll send you her information. She is a gem.

Bonus snapshot: Orchard MRT.

Bugs of Singapore, can I get a “what what”?

Here’s another jumping spider. I’ve seen about 3 very striking types since I’ve been here. I think this one must be some sort of mimic. An ant mimic maybe?

It let me get pretty close, eh?

And for the more squeamish bug lovers, a butterfly. I’ve seen lots of little brushfoots (that are actually called Cycad Blues here) and some nymph-looking ones, but I can’t wait to get out into the nature reserves near my new apartment to really go butterfly hunting.

Thanks to Butterflies of Singapore for their site which helped me identify this Lime Butterfly. Also for inspiring me to find a “Fluffy Tit”.

“While the Fluffy Tit is quite commonly encountered in the field, a pristine one is relatively rare. I alerted the guys and soon, everyone crowded round the bush. There was an intense round of shutter clicking, with everyone fixing their eyes on the beautiful Fluffy Tit.”

The last little bitty bit of Phnom Penh

The VILLA.

This post is also a little bit of an intro to my time in Phnom Penh. It’s now been two weeks since I left Cambodia, but I am dedicated! Without further ado, I present to you: THE VILLA!

The VILLA's 2nd floor balcony-lounge. It was lit with a red lantern which made it feel kind of boudoir in the nighttime despite the words "HOPE", "PEACE", and "LOVE" wrought out of iron and nailed to the walls.l.

Alice and Siena managed to land this sweet VILLA rental from an Australian family who went back home to have their second baby. Because giving birth in Cambodia is a daring thing to pull off. It has shockingly high maternal mortality stats. It worked out perfectly that they were gone for 3 months and needed house-sitters and Alice and Siena were interning for 3 months and needed a place to stay. Perfect.

The first floor. Alice's room and a bathroom are to the right, I slept on the guest bed, behind are the laundry room and office space and storage, and in the middle there is the RAD silver spiral staircase. Turns out every staircase is spiral in Cambodian houses, but it really impressed me that first night.

Let me just say that it was so welcome to have a real house with a real bed to look forward to after Hell-Flight 2011. And a real shower upstairs.

And a real nice kitchen.

For more pictures of Alice’s VILLA, check out her blog to the left.

Onwards!

The Last Phnom Penh Night

Alice graciously declined to go to a work party that sounded really fun in order to take me to ‘something fun’ instead. We very seriously considered going back to the PyeongYang restaurant but finally found some Cambodian classical dance to go watch instead.  Plus the show featured shadow puppets. Anyone who knows Alice also knows that she is totally nuts for puppets and masks.  In fact, let me retell one of our favourite stories:

During the 2009 winter break Alice went to Cambodia and Thailand with her brother. She returned with grand plans for our weekends (“WE’RE GOING TRAVELLING EVERY WEEKEND!’) and a 2-foot-tall wooden marionette puppet of an elephant-headed warrior complete with jointed trunk. It is terrifying. Ask her for a picture; she’ll be more than happy to show you. (Here’s her take on this conversation and the full weekend.) 

One weekend in March or April, which turned out to be one of our most prolific story weekends, I was supposed to meet Alice at the bus station. A few stations before I got there, I called her to see where she was.

G: Hey Alice, where are you?
A: Um … just getting on the subway. At Suraksan
(her home).
G: What?! But we talked 30 minutes ago and you said you were leaving.
A: Yeeeah … I … I, uh, got distracted.
G: What?! By what?
A: …
G: Alice!
A: I was playing with my puppet.
G: WHAT!? Seriously?

How many people are you lucky enough to know who can become totally engrossed in making a puppet walk. For 30 minutes. And becoming engrossed in this halfway out the door.

So Alice was super pumped for this show. We got there early and bought our $5 tickets, then wandered around a bit and bought some sugar cane pieces (not even nearly as delicious as Svay Rieng.) We found the puppet shop and Alice went around to all the leather shadow puppets, touching each one with veneration and love. She effing loves puppets.

When it was finally time, we sat on the little wooden benches in the outdoor theatre. The benches filled up, the musicians came and sat at their instruments, one of the drummers lit the incense stuck in his drum, and a dancer placed a full head mask on the stage with an offering plate.

Part of the orchestra.

The big red drums weren't used, but the pitched metal cymbals were. Very gamelan-feeling.

The first dancer dancing more classical Cambodian dance faces the giant mask.

He becomes the giant.

When I was really little, one of my favourite movies (along with Thief of Baghdad) was King and I. My favourite parts were the parade of children and the Siamese dance version of Uncle Tom’s Cabin. Check it out.

Even though it’s not purist Thai dance, the stylization and gesture and movement infected me. Coming to Cambodia and realizing Cambodian classical dance IS Thai classical dance (generally) was like a homecoming. I was so excited for the classical dance part of the show; the one man in the beginning was it though. When I visit Cambodia again to go to Siem Reap I’m going to work hard to find a quality dance troupe, and hopefully someday I’ll manage to catch the Royal Cambodian Ballet. *shiver of delight*

The rest of the show was fusion dance, monkey dance-mime (they were pretty good!) and shadow puppets. The dance troupe isn’t extensively trained, but they’re adept at what they do and they were entertaining. We had a great time.

There were lots of fight sequences. Intimate fight sequences.

Shadow puppets!

Someone gets told off by a holy man.

A bunch of people bow to someone important.

After the show, the director invited everyone to take pictures with the puppets and performers. We were the only ones to get up ...

Alice is in puppet heaven.

The process involved in making traditional shadow puppets is long and arduous. There aren't many companies left who use real leather.

A dragon!

A giant. My favourite character in South East Asian stories.

After the show we headed over to the riverside Friday night market where we ate some sketchy but delicious street noodles and I bought … pretty much anything that caught my fancy.

A vast spread of picnic blankets. This is the "food court" of the market.

Yet more sugar cane juice for me.

Don't think ridiculous T-shirts are exclusive to Korea.

Nope.

My personal favourite.

We ended the night by getting $4 30 minute foot massages followed immediately by $4 full body massages. An $8 very well spent, I think. It got a little creepy when they led some men into the room where we were lying face down and topless, but we were feeling too SE Asian times to really care. We talked with the girls afterwards and we all had fun telling each other why the others are beautiful and musing on skin colour.

Just to round out the post (so far filled with all things Gralice: Asia, street food, puppets, Engrish t-shirts, slightly creepy situations remedied by making friends with locals,) here is a blurry picture of a moth that Alice found!

She is developing a fine appreciation of the insect world.

My trip to Cambodia was amazing. Big thank you and hug to Alice. I’m definitely going back when I get a chance (*cough* long weekend *cough*) Stay tuned for Singapore adventures and later, for Alice’s visit to Singapore (July 22).

 

 

평양랭면관 a.k.a. Gralice visits North Korea in the most convenient way

안녕!

난 진짜 행복했어 because Alice and I lived out our dream of visiting North Korea, albeit in a way lamer way than we had envisioned. Phnom Penh has one of those North Korean restaurants that have been popping up in other parts of Asia. It turns out Cambodia and North Korea have some fairly strong ties: the royal family of Cambodia and the Dear Leader’s family are tight. The current king of Cambodia actually studied film in North Korea.

Yeah, I know. Film. In North Korea. *helpless gesture*  I’m sure he attended the prestigious PyeongYang Institute of Moving Propaganda (PIMP).

Anyway, these restaurants are known for their N.Korean cuisine and nearly identical waitresses who delight South Korean businessmen with their feminine skills of BEING EXACTLY THE SAME. To whet your appetite, here is a hastily edited vid of what we managed to capture with the camera under a napkin (photography was NOT allowed.)

There you have it! These ladies were skilled: they each played about 3 instruments (well!) and sang and danced.
Alice and I and two other friends of Alice’s met and enjoyed that wild show as well as some “rengmyeon”.    Alice and I also devoured a plate of kimchi between the two of us with great relish and a sort of nostalgic desperation. Take it from us: North Korean kim chi is JUST as good as in the South (…if not better? Gasp!) At the end of the night they sang karaoke with a Korean ajusshi and a Chinese ajusshi. The ajusshis were loving it; turning redder than I’ve ever seen a drunk Korean man turn red before and roaring their approval of the song selections.

Rengmyeon = nengmyeon. Nengmyeon is my favourite Korean food, and it originated in Pyeongyang, so I was especially excited to order it at the restaurant, but it was SO different from its South Korean counterpart; chewier and less sour, more meaty.

We were excited to dust off our Korean and ask the waitresses about their lives. Our waitress was delighted and shocked by us ordering in Korean. Later in the evening when we started asking her about her life, she was even more shocked. Likewise, we were shocked by our inability to understand her accent. Here is a transcription of my favourite part of our conversation with her:

Alice: How did you get to Phnom Penh?
Waitress: …a plane.

She must have thought we were idiots.

But she did tell us she just applied for the job. (Autonomy!) She used to work in a hotel. (WHAT HOTELS!?) She studied dance and music when she was young. (We envisioned the Arirang Games.) She misses her family (held hostage in case she runs away.) She’s been here for a year or so (FORCED!) She sleeps in the embassy along with all the other waitresses. (Are they fed!?) And she likes it here (where she can almost taste the freedom.)

But honestly, it was really hard not to be THAT Westerner who scrutinized the waitresses for malnourishment or misery or subtle signs of wanting to escape. I don’t know enough about North Korea to even to begin to get in these girls’ heads. Just good luck to them.

Pangapsumnida!

I would totally go back and personally slip another $10 into Kim Jong Il’s pocket.

This photo gets its own post

This was taken at Choeung Ek in the skull stupa, but it was so disturbing to me on so many levels that I decided to blog it separately.

 

What we have here is a skull of a Khmer Rouge victim. I took this picture because there was a shockingly fat spindly-spider (NOT an official name) sitting in the temple of the skull bobbing violently to and fro. It caught my eye because a) it’s a spider in a skull b) spindly-spiders (not to be confused with daddy-long-legs) don’t bob violently in my experience, preferring to lurk in corners conserving their energy and slowly building a nasty flaky pile of something under their webs. (Does anyone know what I’m talking about?) c) spindly-spiders that I’ve known have had little abdomens. This one was far too large.

It wasn’t until I was reviewing the photos in preparation for blogging that I realized it wasn’t just a spindly-spider; it was a spindly-spider who had just caught a big, juicy fly! In a skull!

 

I don’t know about you, but it totally blew my mind. I’m not quite sure why, but it did.

 

And there you have it.

 

Choeung Ek Killing Fields

Now you too can feel like you've ridden a tuk-tuk.

The day after I went to Tuol Sleng, I visited the Choeung Ek killing fields. I believe it’s called the Choeung Ek Genocide Museum and it lies 17km outside of Phnom Penh. It’s not hard to get to and tourists just need to find a moto/tuk-tuk driver who’ll agree to take them there (again, not hard.) I got a good deal of $8 for a tuk-tuk there and back because Vana the driver deals with Alice and Siena frequently and was guaranteed work the next day to drive me to the airport.  We left at 9 because he had prior arrangements, but I would visit earlier if possible.

Before the horror, here are some images of Phnom Penh roadsides. Enjoy your virtual tuk-tuk ride!

These arches lead to a pagoda. Driving around Cambodia, you'll see dozens in a short ride. Check out that naga! Raaaaaad.

Don't be late!

A typical roadside store.

A quick and colourful glimpse into a wedding or engagement party.

Phnom Penh isn't very big, and immediately upon leaving the city centre corrugated metal houses and rice paddies dominate the landscape.

The ride takes around 40 min by tuk-tuk if your driver is trying to conserve gas by driving in 2nd the entire way (like mine.) It’s pretty dusty because of big trucks passing constantly, so if you’re afraid of dust, maybe invest some extra money in a car taxi.

When we arrived, Vana pointed out where he’d be waiting in the shade, and I skipped up to the ticket booth. I had decided to hire a guide this time because I wasn’t sure how well things would be marked. I thought it would just be a free-for-all like most of the other museums I had seen (I also hear Angkor Wat is like that: climb whatever you want to!) If I were to do it again, I wouldn’t spend that $6 on the guide. He had a few interesting things to say that weren’t on the signs placed around the fields, but I had done some prior research and in hindsight … meh. Maybe it was just my tour guide. In any case, here’s what I saw.

The Choeung Ek stupa (a Buddhist mausoleum,) built in the 90s to house the ~8900 bodies unearthed in the excavation of less than half of the mass graves. Before this was built they were sat on wooden shelves in an open-walled building.

There are 16 or 17 "stories" in the stupa. The lower few hold skulls grouped by age and sex. The upper stories hold other bones grouped by type. They have an entire storey devoted to pelvises. The very bottom holds some clothing (washed and treated) that was found in the graves as well, although clothes scatter the entire area. You can leave flowers or incense if you want to, and can go inside to see the skulls.

My tour guide seemed eager to start. He didn’t smile, didn’t do anything subtly, and radiated rage and frustration. The first thing he told me was that his entire family was killed here or at other killing fields in the country because they were doctors and teachers. Next, he told me he had worked here since 1981. Consider that people were executed here until 1979.

He took me to the stupa and pointed out the things he thought I should take pictures of. He waited outside and chatted on his cell while I stared at the skulls a while longer.

Some of the skulls on the 2nd story of the stupa. I think these were middle-aged men.

My guide showed me three skulls whose owners had been executed in different ways. One had been bludgeoned. One had been shot between the eyes. This one had been axed in half. The photo is taken from above the skull.

Next he took me around the excavated mass graves, often stopping and demanding I take a picture of something. “Here. Picture. Take.” Bemused, I followed his instructions.  Every time we stopped he reminded me how many people had been killed here. Every time we started moving again he pointed out the clothes and bones visible poking through the ground. I arranged my face into an expression of disgust and shock, but I was actually having a really difficult time digesting the reality of where I was and what I was seeing.

That is a skull. It used to be someone’s head. His face was here, his brain sat there, his ears were here. Once he had a face. He had a life, a family, dreams and fears and an imagination. Then maybe he looked a his work camp leader the wrong way and he ended up bound and blindfolded, kneeling by a pit, probably insane with fear as screams and smells surrounded him.

Things like this are hard to imagine and know when it’s a gorgeous sunny, butterfly-filled day and an angry man is pointing at various wooden signs. I think I would have preferred to take in the horror alone and wandering like I did at Tuol Sleng.

The site of Choeung Ek used to serve as a graveyard for the ethnic Chinese in Phnom Penh. This is the only remaining gravestone. In the background is the "magic tree". It had loudspeakers hung from it that played music to drown out the sounds made by the people being killed. I have no idea why they call it the "magic tree".

At the "magic tree" my guide very suddenly grasped my upper arm with steely fingers and dragged me towards the ground. He pointed in mute rage at a patch of earth strewn with teeth and bone fragments. There were teeth and bones and clothes and rope hand cuffs everywhere. Too much to be worth trying to clean up.

For me, the most horrifying thing I saw at Cheoung Ek. It reads: "KILLING TREE AGAINST WHICH EXECUTIONERS BEAT CHILDREN". Often female prisoners from S-21 would arrive with children or babies. To save time, when killing them, the executioners would just take them by their feet and swing them repeatedly against this tree.

The next few sentences are not for the queasy. Be warned.

In the film I watched at Choeung Ek, they interviewed a man who had lived in the area before the Khmer Rouge took Phnom Penh. After Khmer Rouge fell to the Vietnamese, he headed home. He passed through Choeung Ek on the way and he said he remembered feeling very uneasy about the place: “This place is not how it used to be.” He noted the various new buildings (housing chemicals to sprinkle on mass graves, torture instruments, guards) and the terrible, terrible stench of the place. He wandered around. He saw freshly turned earth, bloody torture instruments, palm stems covered in gore, and most terribly (to me) he found a tree covered in “blood, gore, and brains.” This is that tree.

Instead of buying new machetes or palm knives, executioners sometimes just used the serrated leaves of palms.

A close-up of a leaf. They're very sharp and very hard. These trees also grow everywhere.

My guide left me to watch the film and explore the little information centre alone. Before he left I finally asked him the question that I had been most thinking about since I learned about Tuol Sleng and Choeung Ek (and judge me how you will.) We had already said goodbye when I decided I had to know and chased him down with, “Wait! Can I ask you one more question?” (which was silly as it was the first question I asked him because he RIPPED through the fields as fast as possible.) He turned to me, strangely pleased, although still seemingly seething with anger.
“Is this place haunted?”
“Haunted?”
“Are there stories about ghosts?”
“Oh! Dead spirits. No. Not at all.”
“Oh. . .”
“But one time yes. Very very haunted. Many frightening stories. No since 1993.”
“What happened in 1993?”
“Monks come and bless here. We all Buddhist, so we can’t rest without … monks came and prayed a ritual for all the dead souls here. Since then, no ghosts. Nothing. Everyone asleep now.”
“What about before 1993?”
“Oh yes. Very haunted.” At this point, he lit his cigarette as if this were the most normal conversation in the world. “I work here since 1981.”
“Did you – did you see anything?”
“No. See nothing. But I hear many things.”
“What did you hear?!”
“I hear terrible things every night. I used to sleep by old guard house outside with others. Every night we hear screams, cries, prayers. We hear the sounds of people being killed.”
“…oh my god…”
“Yes. It so terrible. I know how they sounded. Women and men. Children crying for their mothers. And screaming. And [made gurgling sounds].”
“But now…”
“Nothing. Every year monks come back to say prayer again. 1993 even the King came!”
“Wow. Thank you. Thank you.”
“Yes. Bye.”

There's a primary school right next door to the killing fields. It was strange to hear the kids singing songs and chanting and screaming recess-time screams while wandering around on the site of a 20 000-person murder.

A little yellow shrine I found behind a big tree, facing the unexcavated mass graves.

They built a dyke around the remaining mass graves to protect them from the rainy season's floods. (It still flooded.)

The dyke makes for a pretty walk around the perimeter of the killing fields. It was REALLY pretty: rice paddies and butterflies and a cool breeze.

 

Sorry for this super heavy subject. As apology, please look at this duck.

 

Duck chaser.

Mystery Insect!

It was tiny, maybe 3-5 mm across, and wouldn’t have even noticed it but it was moving across a cushion near me. It seemed to have covered itself with dead matter like a decorator crab, and upon closer inspection using the zoom on my camera, I found it to look suspiciously (deliciously?!?!?!) shrimpy-looking.

Check out his digs.

Click for close-up shrimpy goodness.

What is it?!

Tuol Sleng Genocide Prison (S-21)

Rule Number One: No laughing.

One of the must-see attractions in Phnom Penh is also one of the most disturbing in Asia. Welcome to Tuol Sleng Genocide Museum, or S-21 Prison. In its early days it was a good boys secondary school in a wealthy part of Phnom Penh. (Tuol Sleng means Poison Tree Hill in Khmer, and according to a video I watched in the Museum S stands for “security”, 1 stands for Brother Number One (Pol Pot), and I don’t remember what 2 stands for.) Vestiges of its educational past still remain, but it is first a very eerie, even nauseating place to visit, and second, a surprisingly effective museum. Of the places I visited in Phnom Penh, it was my favourite in a dark, dark way.  It’s not overly dramatic or pedantically vengeful against the Khmer Rouge, but it effectively shook me up.

20 000 people were interred here between 1975 and 1979, and only 7 survived until the Vietnamese “liberated” the country. In the very front of the grounds you can see 14 graves of those who were hurriedly killed just before the Vietnamese arrived. Most of the people here were executed at the Cheoung Ek Killing Fields outside of Phnom Penh (because the grounds here were too full of burials after a few months.) People were brought here for various reasons including being part of the old government, being educated, being deemed dangerous, being disliked by the wrong person, etc. Here they were tortured into confessing ridiculous crimes (being members of the FBI/CIA, stealing official records, being in cahoots with foreign governments, tampering with Khmer Rouge workings) and then executed.

The rules of the prison ca. Khmer Rouge days. Click for a larger image.

An original bed from the political holding cells on the ground floor of building A. They were far larger than the brick and wood cells in building B. You can also see a leather cushion, shackle belt and bowl.

Same bed, same room, same bowl, same metal stick, same body-shaped blood stain on the floor. This is FOR REAL. There were pictures displayed of corpses lying on the bed unimaginably flayed or mutilated. I took pictures of the pictures but decided not to post them. If you want to see you can google them or email me.

Here is building B (left) and a service building ahead. The wooden frame was once used in school sports, and later a torture device. They hung prisoners by their feet and dunked them repeatedly/prolongedly headfirst into urns of dirty water. The urns are there too.

As I wandered around on the upper floors avoiding the huge tour groups that were milling about even though it was early morning, I accidentally startled three young Cambodian boys straying from their group. They must have thought I was a ghost in my white flowing shirt, wearing a white scarf over my hair (because the sun is HOT on black hair) and they squealed and ran before they realized I was just a foreigner. They laughed for a long time with me and followed me around for the next half hour.

I noticed these women comforting each other when I started climbing the upper floors, but by the time I got to the third floor I was shocked to find that one had taken off her shirt, displaying angry red welts that another woman was rubbing with something small. Were they lash marks? A strange linear disease? Kunthea later told me it's "coining" or "cao gio", a form of traditional SE Asian healing involving a medicinal oil and a coin. And red welts.

A blackboard remaining from the prison's school days.

As I moved to building B, I passed the torture frame. It looked so innocent.

Building B displayed pictures of prisoners and torture on the ground floor. They kept meticulous records of prisoners, taking photos of each new prisoner, each prisoner that died while still imprisoned, and keeping notes on others sent to the Killing Fields.
The upper floors were not accessible. I found out later that not all of the photos displayed were from S-21. Some were from other prisons, sometimes people who visit can find pictures of living relatives or even of themselves even though only 4 of the 7 survivors of Tuol Sleng are alive today.

Often prisoners-to-be were told to pack their belongings because they had been reassigned to better working conditions, or a new job in the city, or to do a special assignment for a high-ranking individual. Often they didn’t realize where they and what they were doing there until they were locked in their cells.

Just like the National Museum, there was little explanation of the organization of the pictures: just row after row of faces. Sometimes they seemed organized by gender, other times by age. One board had a few foreigner picture on it. The rooms were hot and smelled like too many sweaty people in not enough space, which added to the claustrophobia of the maze of faces. I can’t say Building B was informative or enlightening or enjoyable (obvi not!) but in its own way it added to the eerie, sick ambience of the place.

Typical haunting portrait of a prisoner. Maybe he was just realizing then that he wasn't being relocated to a bigger work farm as they probably told him.

I found two young gentlemen smiling at the camera. What's the story here?

The picture-taking chair in Building C. The photos showing it in action use an old regime politician's wife as model. She's holding an infant.

Part of the foreigner board. It mostly showed Chinese and Indian men, but there is one picture of an Australian reporter who was interred at Tuol Sleng and later executed at the Cheoung Ek Killing Fields. I don't know if it's appropriate to point out his awesome 70's collar, but it really drew my attention in a positive way.

Some of the massive rows of shackles displayed near some pictures in Building B. The were as long as the room. The terrible part is that in modern Cambodian prisons these same shackles are being used to immobilize prisoners. Talk about insult to injury!

Building C was the creepiest by far. The ground floor held narrow brick cells. Lots of them. The “unimportant” (read: not actually dangerous to the Khmer Rouge) prisoners were held here while they were being tortured into false confessions.

The brick cells of Building C. The entrances to the cells were narrower than my shoulders. I'm not a claustrophobic person, but I remained slightly nauseous while inside this building.

Inside a brick cell. I'm 95% sure that is blood. There were similar stains in other cells. I rubbed at it with my sandal, but it wasn't raised or rusty or putty-like. Definitely a liquid stain. You also have an idea of how narrow the cells were.

The brick cell hallway.

Inside a cell: bowl, shackle chains cemented down.

Above the brick cell floor, there were wooden holding cells. These were, if possible even creepier than the brick cells. The entire floor is connected by a long narrow aisle between two rows of dark wooden doors with low square windows. They were shut with the metal latches we still use in public bathrooms, but prisoners were put in shackles cemented into the floor. For some reason it really bothered me that almost all of the cells were still latched shut. I opened one, but that creeped me out even more!

Just as I entered the first room of wooden cells, a tour guide with a monk tried to make me join his tour, but I was distrustful and stayed back. Still I was happy for the company in the long lonely aisle until the monk abruptly turned and left 10 feet in. I like ghost stories, and even have dabbled in ghost hunting, but have never experienced anything even remotely ghosty. Still, I willingly admit that this is one of the top three spookiest places I’ve ever been.

The upper floors wooden holding cells. Mysterious words on the wall. Are they from the school era French classroom? A rogue French prisoner? A guard with an inexplicable and dark sense of humour? What is the story?

A look down the aisle. I would like to draw your attention to the terrible little low windows on the door that I was compelled to look through into the empty cells. I dare you to imagine this place at night.

Building D had a few more photo exhibits and some instruments of torture as well as a small gallery of paintings done by one of the survivors of the prison. They depicted both things he had seen and things people had told him they had seen (or had done! In the film, he talked to an S-21 guard to confirmed many of the gruesome punishments he had painted.)  Strangely, two of the seven survivors were painters/sculptors.

An image of torture as painted from memory by one of the surviving prisoners.

The seven survivors. I saw Bou Meng, the man third from the right selling his book by the water seller gesticulating wildly while talking on his cell. I also met the man on the far left.

That's him! Chum Mey.

I was reading a board with the stats of S-21 when an elderly Khmer man came up behind me and pointed at the “20,000″ and said “twenty thousand” in Khmer. Then he pointed to the grounds. I nodded.

Then he pointed to “7 survivors” and said “seven” English with great care. He pointed to the picture of the 7 survivors, arms around each other.  I nodded.

Then he pointed to the far left man and said, “me”. He pointed to himself. My jaw dropped.

I didn’t know how to react. I think if I was assured he could understand me I might have wrung his hand with both of mine and just babbled things, but I managed to keep myself in check.  I think my obvious awe and reverence were enough for him. He pointed around the room at the paintings and at his eyes to tell me he’d actually seen these things. He mimed how the instruments of torture were used. Then I thanked him in Khmer (the only words I know) and sampeah‘ed him.  I wonder if he just shows up some days and interacts with solo visitors.

Then I managed to catch the film they show, which was about a woman named Bophana and her ill-fated love with her husband. It was heartbreaking but sometimes confusing (story of Cambodia!) Finally, I looked in on the information floors on the trials being currently held against the Khmer Rouge heads.

A well-hated picture of the prison director, Duch. Duch is, I think, the only one of the big 5 Khmer Rouge names currently to have been convicted. If he serves his full sentence of around 40 years, he will be released when he's 87. Apparently they made him tour Tuol Sleng after a reporter found him in the late 90s teaching math in a secondary school in Phnom Penh and preaching at a church as a lay pastor. He repeated broke down, and continues to claim all of the blame for the massacres and torture at Choeung Ek and S-21.

Svay Rieng Province with Alice’s Work

June 7 and 8, Alice’s work decided she would be visiting some garment factories in a province bordering Vietnam. Rather than either chilling in Phnom Penh or spending 16 hours on a bus to and from Siem Reap, I begged Alice to beg her work to let me tag along. Miraculously, they did! I had a really great, eye-opening experience to see a part of Cambodia that casual tourists rarely get to see. Also food. Delicious food.

The famous slum building in the expat area filled with illegal activities and an obscene amount of people. This is the view from Alice's office window.

This is the view from the other side (almost. I took the picture from street level, but it's true that if you look out of the bathroom window across the hall from Alice's office, you will see this building in all its golden-topped glory.) It's the new National Assembly Building.

In the car:
Alice and Grace: What is there to see in Svay Rieng province?
Boss: Umm … not much.
A and G: But what would you recommend?
Boss: Well, in the rainy season you can see some beautiful roadside views.
A and G: Roadside views. Huh.

Honstly though, pretty stunning. Most of the province floods with the river water in the annual river delta cycle. (Like ancient Egypt! Just ... a lot more impoverished.) As a result, the land in this area is extra fertile.

We stopped in Svay Rieng town for lunch which was DELISH! I have photos from the same lunch on the way back. We met with some people regarding Alice’s project and headed off into the sweaty, dusty heat of the day to visit the first garment factory.  Alice does work on workers’ maternity rights and I was able to sit in while she talked (with the help of translators) to some of the women who worked in the factory. It was such a privilege. Also, Cambodian women are so beautiful with their dark skin and impossibly high cheekbones. They’re also dainty like little birds, but that might have more to do with childhood nutrition … Alice said, and I agree that being beautiful and poor are the worst combinations for women. Cambodian women, the poorest especially, are constantly at risk of being sold into the sex trade from which there is little hope for escape. If you want to know more about it, there’s one excellent book that I read a part of at Alice’s that I can recommend.

At the factory we were joined by Alice’s fabulous coworker Kunthea who translates everything interesting for us. She’s so sparklingly friendly she puts everyone at ease. From the factory, we went on to the town of Bavet, right on the border with Vietnam. This is the first Cambodian soil people see when they come through by bus from Ho Chi Minh City.

Bavet!

Seashells strewn on the ground. Maybe from the floods? We weren't near the ocean at all.

Our hotel room. 12-foot-high ceilings, fan, a/c, strange silky beddings, and ... three enormous black crickets (as big as a toonie and a quarter placed beside each other)!!!

The lobby of our hotel. It was very Vietnamese. We spent some time watching Cambodian music videos. All the songs seem to be about heartbreak. "I love A but he loves B and now he loves me again but I'm in love with C and everything SUCKS!" or "I love Boy but he has to go to the city to make money." or "I fell in love with a girl but now she's found a richer man."

Breakfast in Bavet. Alice decided on the pho because we were so close to Vietnam, and it was delicious.

Bao in Bavet. I heard they had steamed buns (bao) and knew that's what I needed. Also note the Vietnamese iced coffee with condensed milk (HEAVEN!)

A house we passed on the way back to Svay Rieng to visit the second garment factory. Apparently it belonged to a famous general who was recently killed in a helicopter crash.

After visiting the second garment factory, we stopped at the same restaurant and ordered almost exactly the same thing. Clockwise from the green tomatoes: guava, green tomatoes, bitter cucumber to eat with the egg dish; fried freshwater fish; duck eggs, onions, and dried fish omelette. Not pictured: sweet fish soup, mango/onion/fish sauce to go with our fish.

The way home at the ferry terminal (to cross the river.) Kunthea decided to buy us crickets to snack on. Cambodians are huge snackers. Now, Alice has an insect problem - one that improved since knowing me, granted, but still gets the creeps frequently. The fact that she is holding a fried cricket by the legs at ALL is a miracle. The fact that in the next moment she ATE said cricket is beyond all ... mind ... blown

Observing my cricket. I had a surprisingly difficult time eating it. I think it's because I KNOW about crickets. I know what they eat. I've watched one lay its weird eggsack on a tree trunk. I've seen the giant ones in our hotel rooms, eyes gleaming with malice.

Petting the cricket's head. I pretended we were friends. Then I ate him. He tasted like crispy, oily garlic. I felt his wings against my teeth. I only ate one.

The remains of our crickets. (Don't eat the legs.)

Kunthea enjoys her crickets.

Our favourite ad in all of Cambodia. Drink this whiskey! It'll a) turn you into a white man who can pick up any classy gold-lame clad Camobdian woman in a trice b) turn you into the type of Cambodian woman to be picked up by a white man.

On the ferry, Kunthea rolled down her window and waved over a little girl carrying chunks of sugarcane and bought two bags for us to chew on for the rest of the ride. They were SO juicy and fresh. Alice and I tried to buy some in Phnom Penh a few days later and were so disappointed.

On the ferry. Two Cambodian girls rest.

A grandma. The things she's seen would probably blow my mind. Every time I saw a person over the age of 40 in Cambodia (surprisingly infrequently) I would think, "What have you seen? What experiences have shaped your life?" Alice and I had the opportunity to ask Kunthea's older sister and father later and it was both horrifying and fascinating. As Kunthea says, "You had to be clever at stealing, or you died."

Just before getting back into Phnom Penh, Alice's boss Sophal picked up some of these fruit and generously gave Alice and me a bag. They're called "santol" in English and despite looking like terrible mouldy devil-fruit to some people (Alex...) they are deliciously sweet and juicy.

 

 

 

An interruption from our regular schedule

I arrived in Singapore on Saturday night and today I had my first day of “induction”.  I’ll tell you all about it when I get caught up chronologically but for now I leave you this gem of a conversation: 

I call it: I LIVE IN UMBRIDGE’S HOGWARTS!!!!!!!!!!

Foreign Teacher: We were standing on the sidewalk waiting and they asked us to move. We did. We weren’t in our new spot for more than 2 minutes and they asked us to move again. What’s going on? Why can’t we stand on the sidewalk in the shade?
Ministry of Education worker: Oh, it must be the congregating law.
FT: What?
MOEW: It is not allowed to gather in one place more than 5 people simultaneously.
Everyone: WHAT!?
MOEW: Yes, it is the law.
Me: But … what if I have 5 friends and we go out for dinner.
MOEW: Maybe they’ll ask you not to stand together. Maybe they will see you’re just being social and it’s not a problem.
Me: Why?
MOEW: Because it is against the law to gather more than 5 people …
Me: Yes, but why is it the law?
MOEW: Oh! I see! It is because we want to discourage protesting. Protesting is against the law.
Everyone: WHAT!?
Me: You mean, Singaporeans don’t have the right to protest?
MOEW: (obviously confused) Um … You can go to a place called Speakers’ Corner to speak. That is alright. Protesting is not allowed.
Me: You don’t have the right to protest?!?
MOEW: I don’t know this right.

UMBRIDGE!

Umbridge lives.

Stay tuned for the rest of Cambodia and my new adventures here in Singapore.

 

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